I feel so much hate, I’m forever enraged. In a fight for my fate that I have to engage in day after day. Until I can’t sustain, keeping score on the slate. Losing mate after mate, my minds in a haze and my life is a maze. Nothing pertains but everything is the same and I can’t keep myself sane, I want to break the chains, but I cant, to weak I have no strength. No energy my mind is in a glaze. I want it but I can’t chase. I’m infinitely unsure of every damn thing. Maybe it’s in my DNA and when you unravel the strain you can physically see the pain. It’s become engrained and it’s deep in my veins, and it’s infected my brain. My thoughts contain things I’ve pushed away, troubles and struggles that would amaze. I struggle to feign the fact that I strain and I pretend that in my own mind I reign. I should hold all the blame for the things that pertain to my name. I take aim at a claim that is fake and should be reclaimed. So tie me up and light the flame, so I can be rid of this shame, and be done with this game.
I remember reading a book a long time ago called Buddhism for Beginners by Thubten Chodron. The book itself was a great explanation of the basics of Buddhism and I highly recommend it to anyone who has questions on Buddhism. Of course my review of the book is not why I’m writing this, it’s actually for something that stood out to me most.
“Seeking one correct answer often comes from a wish to make life – which is basically fluid – into something certain and fixed.”
Life, in itself is filled with many mysteries, many question, and lot’s of answers. Questions can have a definite answer, like mathematical and scientific questions can be explained and proven true. That’s just a fact, but other questions have a plethora of answers behind them.
So why do we choose to except the first answer we hear? Instead of allowing ourselves to hold on to the question before accepting the answer. Looking at the many sides and processing it careful, to make a choices on which answer to accept – if we even decide to pick one answer as being best – that’s how it should be.
Yet the media has its fair share of the blame on why we live in such a close-minded and intolerant society. We are not given the full story, which would allow for us to make an informed decision on the matter at hand. Instead we are fed trigger fuelled stories that cause us to see red and side with the first plausible idea we are handed. Not only that, the story we are shown and the answer we are given is dependent on our geographical location and political presence!
Life as Thubten Chodron said “Is Fluid”, so why are we made to feel like we need to answer a question with a solid? It’s like floating the titanic on a cannel, it don’t make sense. We live in a time were we need to have and open-mind about everything question. We should never feel pressured to choose the first answer but instead decide that maybe we should just hold on to that one question and turn it over and over. All the while contemplating both the question and the answer.
As for the political aspects, that could be implied with this topic, I choose to not debate politics with people. There are few exceptions to this rule, but why ruin a good time. My point in a nutshell is to impose upon you, my Committed Reader, a sense that sometimes the answer we seek for the questions we ask aren’t always concrete. Don’t be afraid to seek an answer by retaining the question for later.
“Good things come to those who wait,” cliché I know but seriously, mull it over for a minute, analyze, examine and consider all sides. That is the best advice I have ever had, I just wish I hadn’t gotten it when I was 28.
Thank you again my Committed Reader