Three Little Words

Is it too early

Or am I too late

Should I hurry

Or maybe wait?

How will I know

Is there a sign

Will I get a note?

Is it almost time?

I think I’m ready

Is it now or never?

This is too scary

It feels like forever

I’m tired of waiting

Maybe I’ll say it

There’s no abating

Okay forget it

I’m too nervous

But I’m also excited

My mind is a circus

I’m a little frightened

It’s really very simple

But timing is key

It’s also difficult

But it will set me free

I hold my breath

I’m waiting for the moment

Here is my chance

I hope I don’t blow it.

Ready or not it’s coming

My heart is beating fast

I feel like I’m running

I want this to last

So I say this here

And I say it loud

I want you to hear

That I am proud

I mean this in every way

And I promise it’s true

So believe me when I say

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Music Is Life

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Music has a way to affect mood, emotion, and feelings in people in many different ways. Some people listen to music to get hype, others listen to it in order to put themselves in a mood, and still others listen to just enjoy it. Regardless of the reason everyone listens to music, even the deaf can feel the power of music through vibrations. Music affects everyone, we all have a favorite song or a list of song that become our go to in times of different emotion situation.

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Music is a universal thing, a song that your friends might make fun of you for enjoy, could in fact be a No. 1 hit in a country halfway around the world. We love to think that we are the ones who discovered that unheard of band, but the reality, which is actually pretty amazing, is that 100’s of 1000’s of people all found this band at the same time and there for in a weird way, all those people are connected through the universal language of music. For a minute those 100’s of 1000’s of people all feel the exact same feeling, over the idea that they were the first. That is why we get so upset when those secret gems become world wide hits. Because in a way we feel like we deserve credit or that they were there just for us.

Music has had many different influences in many lives. It’s been known to have curative properties, it’s been known to help stimulate different aspect of living organisms, music can even make our point of view skewed. Where would we be without music, and how would we ever make it through long car rides, showers, or get hyped in the gym without it?

musicSo here is the way I am going to end my monologue on music. I ask you my Committed Reader, what is your current jam? What song (or group of songs) do you currently play all the time right now? Share it with me, I would love to even here the story behind why that song/s mean so much to you! Who knows, I may find my new favorite song because of you.

 

Verse and Lyric!

Give me a pen and a pad
So I can go mad
I don’t mean to brag
but Im pretty rad
My rhymes ain’t a fad
my verse is iron clad
Emotions I can show a tad
my skill, you wish you had
When it comes to the rhymes
and the rhythms that I write
Just keep me insight
cause I might get hype
a killer with a vibe
and I will do it every time
you know it’s not a crime
Verse and lyric are divine
So I write them all the time!

Days 29-32

We have been here for over a month now! It really feels like we’ve been here so much longer though! There have been some growing pains, to say the least over the last month. Yet we have made it! I hope that this place keeps feeling like more and more like home, as we wait to see what will happen.
The neighbors still make noise so no surprise there. Katie said, “they sound like they are dropping bombs”. It is still pretty annoying but on that note, the smell of marijuana has decreased, fingers crossed it stays that way.

Today the 32nd day of survival in this place was the most trying but that was only because my internet provider is stupid! I went to trade in my old modem/router for a new one, due to issues with the old one, and they gave me just a modem. So I went and bought a Wi-Fi router cause I needs me some Wi-Fi! Well, conveniently it did not work. So I called them and the guy said hey you can get a panoramic modem that does both without any deposit on it. Well, when I went to the store to get it they told me I had to pay the deposit – insert eye roll- we went back and forth and now I’m 25 dollars poorer. I’m also waiting to see if they will reimburse me for it since it was their people who said I wouldn’t have to pay!

This has been the most stress full day since moving in. Aside from that Life here has been rather nice!

A lot of us have experienced what seems like paranormal activity in my room. I have taken to a high fiber diet in order to battle these entities with their own weapons! I think it’s working it has also been keeping the kids away from me so, great success!
In honor of Katie’s “dropping bombs” comment, I leave you all with this great song!

“Am I A Good Person?

“Am I a bad man
Cause I tried to get the things I never had, man
Was dealt the bad hand
But I maintain my life and changed my life
Even with these cards, I play the game right
Could you please shine one of your blessings down on me?
My life is a mess, many levels of stress and I really could use one now”

-Krayzie Bone

Good Person?

Am I a good person? Lets admit it, the world has teeth! Rows of razor sharp, soul crushing teeth, that will bite down when you lease expect it. I could sugar coat it but seriously once you hit a certain age the world loses it’s sugar coating. The reality is that growing up brings new challenges and affords new possibilities. It’s a kind of world that you are excited for when you are young but that excitement is quickly turned to misery and confusion. Life itself has a way of testing us at every turn with an unbiased, and non discriminatory attitude!

Life an equal opportunity hardship!

Most people are not born with a silver spoon in their mouth. The majority of humans must work, toil, and labor for an opportunity to afford a living wage. Yet the thing that amazes me is the people that have experienced life’s bite. The people who have gone through hell and still continue to thrive, and not just thrive but actually go out and have a smile on there face. These individuals are able to see something that others can’t, they are wired to think differently, they have the ability to show humility and compassion in the face of grief and misfortune. Why?

Because they are “a good person”. These people would give you all they had if it meant they were helping other. They would just as quickly give you their shirt or shoes than to let you go without.

This is something that I struggle with and I’m sure others do to. I don’t consider myself a bad person by any means. I do what I can to provide for my family, even in the midst of hardship. There isn’t a thing I wouldn’t do, and that is where the dichotomy lies. What would I do for my family? If this was a game of cards and I “was dealt a bad hand” I would do the normal thing. Bluff.

The thing is this isn’t a card game, and the decisions that I make as to how to handle situations has a ripple effect. If I bluff about my hand to garner favor, or assistance, am I really making myself happy? No. If I really wanted to be happy I would look for a way to bring joy to myself and others not just manipulate it so I can benefit.

I would fight for every chance to help instead of be helped. Look for chances to give, time, support, donations, attention or anything else. Yes we all go through times of need when life bites, but we have all felt that overwhelming sensation when people come together to help you. Even when all they do is check in on you.

Reciprocate! That is how we can be “a good person”. If we can be overwhelmed by joy from someone sharing with us, than imagine the feeling of being on the opposite side of that. To be the one that makes someone feel overwhelmed. Help others cause you never know when you’ll need their help too.

Thank you my Committed Reader

-EB

 

A Song of Life

She walked in and everyone saw her, except me I didn’t see her, I sensed her. I sensed her in the increased blood flow throughout my body. I sensed her when my heart rate quickened and I was in cadence with her. I Sensed her in my shallow breathing, in sync with her steps. We were in rhythm but I doubt she would ever know.

A girl like that would never notice me. Why would she? I was a nobody. A nobody that seemed to syncopate every time she came near. I could feel her presence, and if that was the effect she had on me just by coming close, I could imagine what would happen if she ever touched me. I would daydream about what would happen if she ever came in contact with me. It would be a symphonic event that would start with a crescendo and would be filled with accents and trills that would send us over the top. An unstoppable force of rhythmic passion filled with affrettando and devoto. It would be our greatest compositions!

If that was just a touch, imagine what holding her would entail or even still, what would happen if we ever kiss! A daydream that would overcome me for months!

I would dream of creating music with her for the rest of my life! It would be an awesome song of life!

via Daily Prompt: Song