Three Little Words

Is it too early

Or am I too late

Should I hurry

Or maybe wait?

How will I know

Is there a sign

Will I get a note?

Is it almost time?

I think I’m ready

Is it now or never?

This is too scary

It feels like forever

I’m tired of waiting

Maybe I’ll say it

There’s no abating

Okay forget it

I’m too nervous

But I’m also excited

My mind is a circus

I’m a little frightened

It’s really very simple

But timing is key

It’s also difficult

But it will set me free

I hold my breath

I’m waiting for the moment

Here is my chance

I hope I don’t blow it.

Ready or not it’s coming

My heart is beating fast

I feel like I’m running

I want this to last

So I say this here

And I say it loud

I want you to hear

That I am proud

I mean this in every way

And I promise it’s true

So believe me when I say

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Butterflies!

One kiss on the lips and away I slip.

My heart beat quickens and I lose grip.

We dance into a crowd and we are lost.

In an instant we forget, and now it’s just us.

An embrace that pushes everything away!

No fears or worries. no knowledge of pain.

We become one in a sea of many.

And for a moment that is plenty.

We come back to a reality that is now less gloomy.

A reality with new colors, life and beauty.

And when I reminisce about that night.

It feels as if butterflies are taking flight.

My body fills with a sense of euphoria.

So strong that I can feel it begin to gnaw.

The only thing that can make it subside.

Is know that you will come back to my side.

 

Madre De Amor

A mother sacrifices in order to prevent her child from digging their grave.

They go through trials and emotions; fear and hardship yet always brave.

Giving life, love, comfort, and nourishment to her sons and daughters.

Keeping them safe, clothed and feed, all while never seeming to falter.

Stoic in times never showing the fear in her mind, keeping it all out of sight,

She must fight to hide the horrors of the earth from her children for a time.

The world is scary and it has teeth, but a mother has power and spells to keep it at peace.

There is no limit to her love, she knows that until her time, she will make it reach.

And even after she is laid to rest, her memory will exist in those she loved and raised,

It will be passed on through generations, from her kids to their kin, in words of praise!

She give you safe passage as you ‘walk through the valley of the shadow of death’.

A place she has been through before, holding you close to her chest.

The love of a mother will always stay true and will never fade or even decay.

It will stand and show in her faith of you, cause unlike others she knows you’ll do great.

A true mother will have made an impact in the life of those all around

Once it’s gone it will leave a felling so harsh and profound.

But the memories should remain, that will help explain why her loss was such a pain

and why her memory will never be in vain, because her love, deep inside we contain.

 

My desire.

A spark waiting to reignite.

Love that seemed outta sight.

A feeling worth the fight.

Yet slowly losing height.

I was on the verge of quitting.

No longer worried about meeting.

The one that would give me meaning.

And always care about my feelings.

But a single light, in the distance shown.

And suddenly I, didn’t feel so alone.

My heart no longer roams.

Because it has found a new home.

You came out of nowhere.

Now life is easier to bare.

So my love i do swear.

To the one that will always be there.

You re-lit my flame.

You’ve wiped all the pain.

Now my life will never be the same.

Cause you are the one that I claim.

To express how I feel.

Is just so surreal.

Losing you isn’t part of the deal.

Cause my love for you is so real.

I love you more everyday.

And that love will never stray.

But stay true to you till my dying day.

Cause I know our love will never fade.

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My World is changing,

rearranging,

as everything is fading,

no more values, just hating.

no more talking, just complaining

Hard work is cheap, no more straining

History likes to repeat,

and we don’t even see

we wont get to our feet

to busy trying to retweet

We could shatter like glass,

just like the past.

watch our lives pass,

wait for the crash.

if these days are the last,

then let’s have a blast!

Let our world be destroyed,

who gives a crap.

 

My Inner Thoughts

I feel so much hate, I’m forever enraged. In a fight for my fate that I have to engage in day after day. Until I can’t sustain, keeping score on the slate. Losing mate after mate, my minds in a haze and my life is a maze. Nothing pertains but everything is the same and I can’t keep myself sane, I want to break the chains, but I cant, to weak I have no strength. No energy my mind is in a glaze. I want it but I can’t chase. I’m infinitely unsure of every damn thing. Maybe it’s in my DNA and when you unravel the strain you can physically see the pain. It’s become engrained and it’s deep in my veins, and it’s infected my brain. My thoughts contain things I’ve pushed away, troubles and struggles that would amaze. I struggle to feign the fact that I strain and I pretend that in my own mind I reign. I should hold all the blame for the things that pertain to my name. I take aim at a claim that is fake and should be reclaimed. So tie me up and light the flame, so I can be rid of this shame, and be done with this game.

The Enigma of Life

We all do it regardless of the reason.

Some people do it when nervous or just for fun.

Other do it when over joyed or stressed a ton.

Sometimes its short sometimes it long.

There are millions of reason for why it happens.

Sometimes we do it and end up clapping.

There are times when there’s just no stopping.

and we end up doing it till we’re sobbing.

When done in a group it might sound like hens.

It’s hard to fake and try to pretend.

It’s comforting, only when it’s genuine,

and better when shared among a group of friends.

It’s something that should be thought after.

Always thrilling and never lack luster.

This thing is hard to control and Master.

The thing I am talking about is Laughter!

via Daily Prompt: Laughter

Toxic

You lookin through my shit
Click after click
I guess you can’t quit
Hitting that like button,
I know you can’t resist.

Double tap! Where do I start?
Always in a hurry to make a heart.
Looks like you’re trying for a restart
Long distance, lack of communication
You fell off and we drifted apart!

You’re sporadic message of attention
Are sending the wrong impression
Cause know its time for a secession
Trying to dangle me out on the line
But I’ve learned my lesson

This situation was to toxic
It was making me hypoxic
So truth be told I had to drop it
It was getting hard to breath
In a relationship that was counterfeit

The Truth I Know

Here you are.
And there you go.
You’re leaving fast.
When we started slow.

My heart is cracked.
And the glue won’t hold.
You won’t be back.
That’s the truth I know.

Here you are.
And there you go.
You’re leaving fast.
When we started slow.

We’ve been so far.
Through the highs and lows.
And we grew apart.
When we seemed real close.

Here we are.
And there you go.
And you won’t be back.
Yeah, this I know.

Smoke

The smoke lingers.

The smell between my fingers.

The taste on my mouth,

The room spins around.

I want that first high,

a feeling I will never get right.

I chase and I chase,

something I can never replace.

The time I waste trying to replicate.

I feel like I’m running through a maze

I’m outta place, I’m in a haze.

Drag after drag,

ash after ash.

I move to the next thing,

Something with more strength

Something crazy and insane.

So I take a shot than a hit.

from a vice that doesn’t mean shit.

I’m numb, my throat’s dry, I cant spit.

I’m gone, barely alive, I can’t quit.

I try and I try from the floor where I lie

trying to detoxify while I’m mystified.

How much did I buy?

I break down and cry!

I must stop to survive.

A habit, like another gateway

A demon that I can’t slay

No more good days

my demons want to surface

I feel less than perfect

Like maybe I’m just a burden

My failures are like a circuit

I promise it’s not on purpose

My demons make me nervous

The first time was the best

but it will never compare to the rest.

I will soon be six feet deep in the grave.

Dealing with craziness as my world goes insane.

Time goes by that i can never save.

All for a sensation something stupid I crave.

For a feeling that will never be the same.

A crutch like an animal that i can never tamed.