Smoke

The smoke lingers.

The smell between my fingers.

The taste on my mouth,

The room spins around.

I want that first high,

a feeling I will never get right.

I chase and I chase,

something I can never replace.

The time I waste trying to replicate.

I feel like I’m running through a maze

I’m outta place, I’m in a haze.

Drag after drag,

ash after ash.

I move to the next thing,

Something with more strength

Something crazy and insane.

So I take a shot than a hit.

from a vice that doesn’t mean shit.

I’m numb, my throat’s dry, I cant spit.

I’m gone, barely alive, I can’t quit.

I try and I try from the floor where I lie

trying to detoxify while I’m mystified.

How much did I buy?

I break down and cry!

I must stop to survive.

A habit, like another gateway

A demon that I can’t slay

No more good days

my demons want to surface

I feel less than perfect

Like maybe I’m just a burden

My failures are like a circuit

I promise it’s not on purpose

My demons make me nervous

The first time was the best

but it will never compare to the rest.

I will soon be six feet deep in the grave.

Dealing with craziness as my world goes insane.

Time goes by that i can never save.

All for a sensation something stupid I crave.

For a feeling that will never be the same.

A crutch like an animal that i can never tamed.

Try

Today I’ve decided to change it up a bit. Usually I would write some motivational blog (at least I hope they are motivational) or a poem of some sort but not today. Today is different day, it’s Sunday the day that most people spend in church, or visiting family, or even spending time with friends.

I want to issue a challenge to my Committed Readers today. I say go out there and try something new. I’m not saying go hoe on a plain and jump out of it! Although if you do please put it in the comments cause that’s something I want to hear about immediately!

For everyone else who is more “down to earth” I say step outta your comfort zone just a hair. Meet someone new, try a new restaurant, play a new game, visit family you usually don’t see, write in a new genre (if your a writer), or watch a new show. It doesn’t matter how crazy or how mild the new thing is, just try!

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Maybe you wanna do something all your friends do but you haven’t. Maybe you wanna go play a game of basketball, or try some softball. Hell go for a run or a hike. Take a small road trip. It is up to you all you need to do is partake.

I would love to hear about what you tried and did today. Maybe whatever you choose to do today will help invigorate you for the start of the work week. I mean if you can try something new than there is no reason you can’t handle the mundane and repetitiveness of the rest of the week!

So go out there and try, partake, and experience. Start your week off right. I believe in you my Committed Reader!

via Daily Prompt: Partake