Writing – Fortuitus Rigmarole

Three Little Words

Is it too early

Or am I too late

Should I hurry

Or maybe wait?

How will I know

Is there a sign

Will I get a note?

Is it almost time?

I think I’m ready

Is it now or never?

This is too scary

It feels like forever

I’m tired of waiting

Maybe I’ll say it

There’s no abating

Okay forget it

I’m too nervous

But I’m also excited

My mind is a circus

I’m a little frightened

It’s really very simple

But timing is key

It’s also difficult

But it will set me free

I hold my breath

I’m waiting for the moment

Here is my chance

I hope I don’t blow it.

Ready or not it’s coming

My heart is beating fast

I feel like I’m running

I want this to last

So I say this here

And I say it loud

I want you to hear

That I am proud

I mean this in every way

And I promise it’s true

So believe me when I say

Butterflies!

One kiss on the lips and away I slip.

My heart beat quickens and I lose grip.

We dance into a crowd and we are lost.

In an instant we forget, and now it’s just us.

An embrace that pushes everything away!

No fears or worries. no knowledge of pain.

We become one in a sea of many.

And for a moment that is plenty.

We come back to a reality that is now less gloomy.

A reality with new colors, life and beauty.

And when I reminisce about that night.

It feels as if butterflies are taking flight.

My body fills with a sense of euphoria.

So strong that I can feel it begin to gnaw.

The only thing that can make it subside.

Is know that you will come back to my side.

Recluse

I’m as muted in truth as I am in emotion.

Frozen in a world where love is devotion.

Unable to grasp the concept or the notion.

For me to find love I would need a potion.

I hid from the world alone and recluse.

Hoping to someday be able to break through.

I scramble to find love in the things that I do.

Because it terrifies me to try to find love in you.

To Err.

I want to learn everything thing again!

To start from the beginning and not understand.

To be naïve and dumb once again.

To have to pretend to know what I don’t comprehend.

Everything delivered to me in a polished formed.

That I except without any qualms.

And the more I know the less I have hope.

It would be so much simpler to learn the one oh one

Than to expand my horizon and wait till time stops.

When everyone around me ascends

I am left to pretend that I understand

I’m suppose to know what I did.

There is no danger in what you don’t know

We only fear when our knowledge begins to grow.

The expanding of knowledge begins the expelling.

We are promised a home made of gold

But we must be dictated by those who make our goals.

Don’t step out of line. Do only whats right.

Don’t judge, let yourself be judge by your father

And don’t you dare falter, you belong to him

So, don’t look for answers in others

Don’t be human, don’t be individuals.

Follow the cult and go with the trend.

In science to err is human, yet everywhere else it’s sin.

My desire.

A spark waiting to reignite.

Love that seemed outta sight.

A feeling worth the fight.

Yet slowly losing height.

I was on the verge of quitting.

No longer worried about meeting.

The one that would give me meaning.

And always care about my feelings.

But a single light, in the distance shown.

And suddenly I, didn’t feel so alone.

My heart no longer roams.

Because it has found a new home.

You came out of nowhere.

Now life is easier to bare.

So my love i do swear.

To the one that will always be there.

You re-lit my flame.

You’ve wiped all the pain.

Now my life will never be the same.

Cause you are the one that I claim.

To express how I feel.

Is just so surreal.

Losing you isn’t part of the deal.

Cause my love for you is so real.

I love you more everyday.

And that love will never stray.

But stay true to you till my dying day.

Cause I know our love will never fade.

Retweet

My World is changing,

rearranging,

as everything is fading,

no more values, just hating.

no more talking, just complaining

Hard work is cheap, no more straining

History likes to repeat,

and we don’t even see

we wont get to our feet

to busy trying to retweet

We could shatter like glass,

just like the past.

watch our lives pass,

wait for the crash.

if these days are the last,

then let’s have a blast!

Let our world be destroyed,

who gives a crap.

When it comes to were you feel the most relaxed, there are multiple places. Your home, the gym, maybe even your car. Regardless it should be a place where you feel safe, comfortable and at peace. Some place where you can forget the troubles of the world, and escape the everyday rigmarole. Some people even go as far as to add some sort of safety blanket like movies, games, or books. Hobbies can be some of the best escapes.

Reading or writing for example can cause a sense of wonder, allowing you to go places that you have never been. Making it a freeing experience where all the real troubles of the world don’t exist. You can do things that you would other wise never be able to do in your real life. Movies can also have the same effect.

I have spent a countless amount of time to make my home a place where not only I can find sanctuary but my kids can too. Yet the other day I had my best friend over and it made me realize something very important. I spend so time much making a home where my kids and myself can be at peace. Yet I never thought about my friends. I strongly believe that everyone should be at peace in my house as much as I am. If I am not stressed in my own home than why should anyone that visits feel any different?

While my friend was here he fell asleep during the movie we were watching and I thought. This guy has been through a lot in the past few weeks, (I will leave detail out in respect of his privacy) and for the first time in months he seemed at peace.

So from now on I will strive to make my home a place where even my friends and family will feel welcomed. A place where no matter what is happening to them in the world, they can let their guard down and relax. They can come and enjoy themselves, take a nap, have an ear to listen, and always feel invited. A place where they know the struggles of the world will disappear even if it’s for a few hours.

If I had to say I learn anything it’s that we all need a place free of judgment and stress. I know that one of the things that help me feel relaxed is spending time with friends, so my friends should feel welcomed and invited in my home and know that my door is always open to them.

So to my friends, new and old, I want extend the invitation to you. If you ever just want a place to escape and relax, watch a movie, read a book, play a game or talk. I am here so don’t hesitate. Life is tough sometimes but you don’t have to go through it all alone.

As for my Committed Readers, I will keep trying to provide you with advice and content that will help you to escape as well. My blog is a big part of my sanctuary and you are always welcomed to continue browsing and spending time getting lost and relaxing.

Yours always,

E.B.

Music Is Life

Music has a way to affect mood, emotion, and feelings in people in many different ways. Some people listen to music to get hype, others listen to it in order to put themselves in a mood, and still others listen to just enjoy it. Regardless of the reason everyone listens to music, even the deaf can feel the power of music through vibrations. Music affects everyone, we all have a favorite song or a list of song that become our go to in times of different emotion situation.

Music is a universal thing, a song that your friends might make fun of you for enjoy, could in fact be a No. 1 hit in a country halfway around the world. We love to think that we are the ones who discovered that unheard of band, but the reality, which is actually pretty amazing, is that 100’s of 1000’s of people all found this band at the same time and there for in a weird way, all those people are connected through the universal language of music. For a minute those 100’s of 1000’s of people all feel the exact same feeling, over the idea that they were the first. That is why we get so upset when those secret gems become world wide hits. Because in a way we feel like we deserve credit or that they were there just for us.

Music has had many different influences in many lives. It’s been known to have curative properties, it’s been known to help stimulate different aspect of living organisms, music can even make our point of view skewed. Where would we be without music, and how would we ever make it through long car rides, showers, or get hyped in the gym without it?

So here is the way I am going to end my monologue on music. I ask you my Committed Reader, what is your current jam? What song (or group of songs) do you currently play all the time right now? Share it with me, I would love to even here the story behind why that song/s mean so much to you! Who knows, I may find my new favorite song because of you.

My Inner Thoughts

I feel so much hate, I’m forever enraged. In a fight for my fate that I have to engage in day after day. Until I can’t sustain, keeping score on the slate. Losing mate after mate, my minds in a haze and my life is a maze. Nothing pertains but everything is the same and I can’t keep myself sane, I want to break the chains, but I cant, to weak I have no strength. No energy my mind is in a glaze. I want it but I can’t chase. I’m infinitely unsure of every damn thing. Maybe it’s in my DNA and when you unravel the strain you can physically see the pain. It’s become engrained and it’s deep in my veins, and it’s infected my brain. My thoughts contain things I’ve pushed away, troubles and struggles that would amaze. I struggle to feign the fact that I strain and I pretend that in my own mind I reign. I should hold all the blame for the things that pertain to my name. I take aim at a claim that is fake and should be reclaimed. So tie me up and light the flame, so I can be rid of this shame, and be done with this game.

The Enigma of Life

We all do it regardless of the reason.

Some people do it when nervous or just for fun.

Other do it when over joyed or stressed a ton.

Sometimes its short sometimes it long.

There are millions of reason for why it happens.

Sometimes we do it and end up clapping.

There are times when there’s just no stopping.

and we end up doing it till we’re sobbing.

When done in a group it might sound like hens.

It’s hard to fake and try to pretend.

It’s comforting, only when it’s genuine,

and better when shared among a group of friends.

It’s something that should be thought after.

Always thrilling and never lack luster.

This thing is hard to control and Master.

The thing I am talking about is Laughter!

via Daily Prompt: Laughter

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